dream

That I was giving someone ......a guy.......head.....I've never dreamt that before! I kept checking my hair in the mirror. We were in this mansion, like the one in Anna Karenina.....I was conditioning my hair. Then I was on a movie set. It was set in a courthouse. I was the character in ....FA, I was supposed to go in with a knife and stab someone on the witness stand. They had me carrying scissors in a cloth, and I was standing there waiting for my cue, for them to call "action" but I didn't hear anything, so I went out on my own......my heart raced wildly, the guy I was supposed to stab wasn't there....so I (pretended to ) stab another actor.....later someone came up to me telling me what an amazing performance I put on.....
I was thinking that stabbing is aerobic exercise and tiring.....?

Before that I dreamt about Madge and that she was still dating Warren Beatty.....I was looking at a picture of her in her underwear. Then it cut to the scene in Carrie where she's dancing with the guy that takes her to the prom.....I was thinking this is a really boring scene....they were talking about "four toddlers" then this cheesy music came on......it was like a scene from the book, which I had read, being converted to a film.....

new words

Hmmm.....this from the so-called "peaceful" "non-violent" Tibetans..... Skulls

I'm posting these here cause they're a little grittier than my usual glittery verse on my other site:

Been Led Down      (Title)

mine, or yours, is it mine or yours

if there's one, there are many

one, one if there is there are many

if there's one there are many
wine is red blood is mine
nipples are sticky red

sticky red?

which one is healthier

heart falls for it fast and

there's a real flow

space can be dark and light

he led you downstairs and to a morgue

was she in a river

insane, and in a river walking around bad neighborhoods, was her.....is her.....on the other side

dark dark are your eyes open or shut

let the light in yourself

threes and threes? that's how many it took

he who comes my way
he whose vision has me
who must be protected like me
it hurt hurt as the fire singed and hissed out of
a simple candle lighter
she told me I am in danger
I am in danger

it's going to eat you


the floor is hot
my face hollows out
one two three they're coming at you

Persephone

This is one of my favorite Greek goddesses the rape victim.....Persephone

Lillith

Man fuckin A.......she's a sex bomb! Hail Lillith Demoness

*Belladonna-X

Artist

you hear about these things

and you feel a contempt for that person....an urge to get at them, thinking "they" will never be "you" you think that................

you think "it'll never happen to me" then it does.

been a while since I've written

but I have quite a lot to say.

I feel like my skin's been ripped off and people can see everything I'm made of inside me. My heart still beating. Blood.