From Ms. Plath

"Message is blackness blackness and silence"


Wind outside is howling. St Valentine of the severed heads don't know if Mlle. Antoinette got your joke. Haha. Crazy man! Stuff of the movies howling wind thunder and lighting.

"I'll see you on the dark side of the moon." Pink Floyd. My astronomy teacher said there is no dark side of the moon nor is it all dark. It rotates in sync with the earth spinnng. I heard this song by the Pixies "where is my mind" I think that may have been playing when I stumbled upon a party in Brooklyn summer 2009 when I found out Justin waS cheating.....this dumped on me en route to work. Here I am young beautiful wonderful but perhaps that was just it. Maybe he wanted to test me. Then that weekend J shacked up in a tent with Leila I found this hipster party by accident in Brooklyn met some people got drunk. This girl got possessive with her bf when I talked to him but I had no designs. Wind is howling.This reminds me of scoobie doo. I lit a white candle to Virgin Mary and pined for Justin. Michael Jacksob died while I was standing outside the Bhuddist Temple and the night before J made out with Leila. And it was Wednesday. 

Precipitation

Ay it's gross. But life must go on.

Swinging, Le Trapeze, checkmates, roses, rates

Excuse me I meant to p ublish on my OTHER site but here it is again.....yes I am a brilliant controversial writer and escort so......this site has much of my writing but here is my hooking up info if a little redundant:   I have neglected this site.....excuse me. Just some quick updates and info.....I will be youer swing or fetish club date for roses: three to seven hundred plus admission around one ten or one twenty on weekends. I ask you drop cash in my bag as we are changing in the locker rooms. I do participate swap but naturally all of us must agree. I do not get with just anyone.....you know.......but most of the time I am ok with it. The amount I ask depends what night and how long we are there for, and the like.  If you are pleasant, generous and respectful it should go down as an excellent night. again, please email me at arielarust@gmail.com  or text, please dont call, 3 four seven, 693 3 one oh three.    Also.....I moved to Jersey City! You can now visit me incall.....Im near bayside park. I will not answer any explicit questions nor will I send face photos. I am good looking and I have been seeing many of the same people for years. One more thing, regarding escorting to the swing club, I promise to do my best to be on time but please keep in mind I am coming from Jersey City and since Sandy trains are messed up. If you help with a cab or pick me up I will love you all the more!  Incall or out I ask 140 for half hour 260 for an hour. I am real and that is me in the photos.......ok! Hope this clears up confusion)

love these funky random beers

we had to pass the pyramid blaster--KLF


i like I said Im intrigued by how many genius creative verdions of beer packaging there are......maybe manufacturers want to make them more girly. there is a spiritual element to alcohol.....so much of booze is ritual.....people drink at the end od a long days work like i am.....not a time to go into this.....but this reflects back to a year ago there was great and horrible all at once.....still dont understand. but i was in the presence of something powerful and beautiful.....it took this long, too long, to see the fruition. may it flourish. my love can never be adequatwly put into words........its gold like sun shine

Day of Blood

mine is wine colored. I died and was dead, so many times. I fucked up stupidly did I? or is there something else happening? I am the eyes of Laura Mars that film must have been written about me. I wish I were oblivious.....but I'm not. I'm grateful to those who stepped in for me. Thank you.

more revised

mine, or yours, is it mine or yours



if there's one there are many


that which is mine

that which is mine

I wish! I wish and watch the red streak on my fingers

if I get out of this room



I'll eat him alive and everything that ever fed him


that's in me and on me



which one is healthier

space can be dark and light

I'm being led down



insane, and in a river


dark dark are your eyes open or shut

threes and threes? that's how many it took


he who comes my way


he whose vision has me


who must be protected like me


it hurt hurt as the fire singed and hissed out of

on that threshold


a simple candle lighter

Led me Down new poetry revised

mine, or yours, is it mine or yours



if there's one there are many

that which is mine
I wish! I wish and watch the red streak on my fingers
that's in me and on me
which one is healthier

heart falls for it fast and

there's a real flow
space can be dark and light

I'm being led down
insane, and in a river walking around bad neighborhoods, was her.....is her.....on the other side

dark dark are your eyes open or shut



let the light in yourself


threes and threes? that's how many it took

he who comes my way


he whose vision has me

who must be protected like me

it hurt hurt as the fire singed and hissed out of

a simple candle lighter


she told me I am in danger

I am in danger

it's going to eat you
in the mirror my face is hollowed out
there's a nothingness......I'm in it......it's horror

new stuff!

Hey everyone, I know it's been a while since I've updated.....

I can feel the newness, the energy bursting and it's no accident. This is the result of hard concentration, labor and meditation done this year. I made a ritual of sorts to clear the way, rid my environment and myself of what's negative or harmful. I got quite a backlash for a while.

But it's happening now.

The sun.....star splashes.......

Apollo is the sun god who drives the chariot across the sky and lights up day..........

the raven is his bird......because he's a terrible enemy as well.

My favorite story of him is that of Cassandra, who was given the gift of prophecy but cursed when she refused him.....that no one would believe her. I'm digressing from this page......

But I'm working on this....will produce new material....the best! is coming

dream

That I was giving someone ......a guy.......head.....I've never dreamt that before! I kept checking my hair in the mirror. We were in this mansion, like the one in Anna Karenina.....I was conditioning my hair. Then I was on a movie set. It was set in a courthouse. I was the character in ....FA, I was supposed to go in with a knife and stab someone on the witness stand. They had me carrying scissors in a cloth, and I was standing there waiting for my cue, for them to call "action" but I didn't hear anything, so I went out on my own......my heart raced wildly, the guy I was supposed to stab wasn't there....so I (pretended to ) stab another actor.....later someone came up to me telling me what an amazing performance I put on.....
I was thinking that stabbing is aerobic exercise and tiring.....?

Before that I dreamt about Madge and that she was still dating Warren Beatty.....I was looking at a picture of her in her underwear. Then it cut to the scene in Carrie where she's dancing with the guy that takes her to the prom.....I was thinking this is a really boring scene....they were talking about "four toddlers" then this cheesy music came on......it was like a scene from the book, which I had read, being converted to a film.....

new words

Hmmm.....this from the so-called "peaceful" "non-violent" Tibetans..... Skulls

I'm posting these here cause they're a little grittier than my usual glittery verse on my other site:

Been Led Down      (Title)

mine, or yours, is it mine or yours

if there's one, there are many

one, one if there is there are many

if there's one there are many
wine is red blood is mine
nipples are sticky red

sticky red?

which one is healthier

heart falls for it fast and

there's a real flow

space can be dark and light

he led you downstairs and to a morgue

was she in a river

insane, and in a river walking around bad neighborhoods, was her.....is her.....on the other side

dark dark are your eyes open or shut

let the light in yourself

threes and threes? that's how many it took

he who comes my way
he whose vision has me
who must be protected like me
it hurt hurt as the fire singed and hissed out of
a simple candle lighter
she told me I am in danger
I am in danger

it's going to eat you


the floor is hot
my face hollows out
one two three they're coming at you

Persephone

This is one of my favorite Greek goddesses the rape victim.....Persephone

Lillith

Man fuckin A.......she's a sex bomb! Hail Lillith Demoness

*Belladonna-X

Artist

you hear about these things

and you feel a contempt for that person....an urge to get at them, thinking "they" will never be "you" you think that................

you think "it'll never happen to me" then it does.

been a while since I've written

but I have quite a lot to say.

I feel like my skin's been ripped off and people can see everything I'm made of inside me. My heart still beating. Blood.

Night Play by *valse-des-ombres

Emilie Leger

What I did and didn't

what had happened........it was like something someone else was in control of me. You .....you can work really hard and plan stuff and go through this whole process, but other times well I just plunge ahead into something of course I had no idea what I was getting into. I didn't know what I was doing period. Now I know. What really.....I mean something that was pretty minute that I didn't think anyone would notice he saw. Anyway......well........I can't say I'm not affected by this. It has really shaken me up. But I kept going back. I believed absolutely in what I was doing. That is why I went through what I did. It was very awkward at first and there was no one I knew who was doing the same....but something in me....it was like I had to.


But still. Something else was building up in me. It was red hot .........I mean in every sense of the word. If it wasn't love at first site, it was definitely lust. I didn't know who he was but I just sensed it. I mean that sounds so cheesy......but immediately BAM it hit me. But it made me uncomfortable. It was too intimate. I don't seek out this kind of attention from people, from strangers. I don't go out of my way to provoke others. I'd rather avoid somebody than face them. A part of me was afraid of him another part of me wanted him. Rather savagely.

Dulcinea

New Chants Cheers

as I heat up
want to feel seashells under me
the waves over me
as I'm going wish
help wish help wish help
I'm hurting hurting
the waves, the sand the torches that are burning

and he will be mine the day is mine

Aphrodite

Aphrodite, goddess of sluts! And beauty. And love.

Painting by My Ambeon on Deviantart